Love, I didn't want to fall... but I have ( L )

Days earlier I blogged about whether there is actually something called love. I didn't believe it! Some parts of me don't want to believe it at the risk of getting hurt, but I don't think I can fight it. I am in love!

The feeling that I'm experiencing right now are direct lyrics from Nat Bassingthwaighte's song "This Can't Be Love"

This can't be love, just hooked up for fun, you couldn't be the one, those things never last
This can't be love, that's not what I need, you feel to good to me, this habits forming fast

I just wanted a kiss, it ended up like this, it's getting so hard to resist

This can't be love
It's not what it feels like, everything's way too good
It's not what it feels like, don't even think I could
Even though it seems so right, thinking maybe I might tonight
This can't be love

This can't be love, I tried to escape, those stupid mistakes, so don't say that word
This can't be love, to feel this free, when you're here with me, everything's been blurred

I just wanted to feel, it ended up too real, its getting so hard to deal

This can't be love
It's not what it feels like, everything's way too good
It's not what it feels like, don't even think I could
Even though it seems so right, thinking maybe I might tonight
This can't be love, this can't be love

Just wanna let go, no need to know
Don't wanna think bout it tonight, don't wanna think bout it tonight
Just close my eyes and feel you by my side
Don't wanna think bout it tonight, I wanna think bout it tonight

This can't be love
It's not what it feels like, everything's way too good
It's not what it feels like, don't even think I could
Even though it seems so right, thinking maybe I might tonight
This can't be love

This can't be love
It's not what it feels like, everything's way to good
It's not what it feels like, don't even think I could
Even though it seems so right, thinking maybe I might tonight
This can't be love, this can't be love

This song, every single lyric is my whole life at the moment. It's like the song was directly written for my life. I just feel so happy. I have a weird feeling in my stomach saying "this isn't right. I don't like the unusual feeling, but at the same time its the most amazing thing I've ever felt"

Well I think I should go! My parents will be happy that I'm in a good mood for once! They won't know why though ;)

Until next time <3 xo

Burnt toast, a phone number and a night of fun!

Lois Lane, Susan Mayer, Lois and Clark, Desperate Housewives = Teri Hatcher, woah this woman inspires me majorly at the moment.

I today bought her book "Burnt Toast and other Philosophies of Life" first of all if you don't have this book... go out and buy one... NOW! I'm writing this @ 11:56pm, but even then go out NOW! You must have a 24 hour bookstore in your neighbourhood right? This book has so many amazing metaphors, messages and things you can take on board in life. I won't tell you all about it but let me say this book has changed my life in as little as 12 hours. I bought it today, finished it and I feel changed already! It has had a large impact!

Now THE PHONE NUMBER, it was just a quiet average night tonight. I was on Twitter being my normal Twitter Whore self, spamming out the page (www.twitter.com/beyy) but then all of a sudden one of my friends sent me the number of the celebrity dude I have the hots for........

(the dude is Cameron McGlinchey former drummer of the Rogue Traders and partner of 4 years to Natalie Bassingthwaighte. I find drummers attractive as they "hit things go bang")

...anyway I got this number and I called it! He answered! OMG the guy I have 'loved' for 3 years was on the phone to me! However been the coward that I am, I screamed and hung up! This then lead to around 5 of my friends calling, Josi, Laura, Tim, Michael and Jacqui! This was madness! He started getting angry. This was about 2 hours ago. The phone is still disconected! Anyways considering that he is not answering now, on Thursday when I go to the movies with Michael, Josiii, Laura, Mel + some others we plan on calling. When he least expects it (:

The night of fun! Well my status was raging with the buzz of the phone number! It was mainly Laura, Josi, Michael and myself. We were all talking about calling, the status convo which is this going is starting to move onto more "sexual" topics. We are now talking about whether chocolate or whipped cream is better during sex (chocolate FTW) and "Man cream" etc.

I'm getting tired. Until next time, With <3 + Laughter, Beyyy xoxo